I forgot how rewarding cleaning can be. I know that may sound crazy to some but it makes me feel satisfied when I can look back on the job I did and feel like I actually got something done. Some days I feel like I don't get anything done but some cleaning takes place inside. I have days where I'm sorting through things in the house and days were I'm sorting through things in my mind and my heart. When I clean sometimes I'm doing both!
I've been on a quest to "find myself" for some time. I don't know why but a lot of times I feel like I should be doing something "more important"...whatever that means! I'm a SAHM what is more important than that? Not much! The problem comes when my kids are at school and I'm at home wondering what I'm supposed to be doing that's so important.
I guess it's summed up here: Yesterday my 10 year old over heard me on the phone saying, "I don't need to be here when the kids get home." (The 16 year old gets home first.) He then said to me, smiling and looking up with his big brown eyes, "yes you do." Thanks, Loften, for reminding me that you still need me. Now I can "wipe away" those defeating thoughts...cleaning is good!
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